i had that anxious feeling again last night. not being able to fall asleep... because my mind was whirring like some mad scientist's machine and I DON'T KNOW WHY. i just wanted to sleep... maybe this is punishment for not trying, or not being smart enough, or available enough, wrong enough.
and it was so good for awhile. not that everything is terrible now... but i need to shape up. know what i care about.
should i try out for multiple? i don't know. it would hurt so much to be thrown aside again. and one act hurt, but this would be so much worse. i don't know if i'm up for that. but maybe it'll be better.
i don't know.
i love hiding behind i bright sunny shirt and the word senior. but i care.
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try out.
ReplyDeletei think if you don't, you'll regret it.
just work really hard and go in there and knock 'em dead. because i know you can.
plus, fitzy's not directing it.
it's easier to be hurt for a while than regret something forever.
just do it. there's no point in not doing something you love.
ah. it's probably just school. i have that probably before every important/new event. it's an unfortunate habit.
ReplyDeleteDo multiple. We need good singers. haha.
ReplyDeleteI say to something completely awesome and new not related to school that will fill you with self-worth. personally, I aim to take up kung fu to achieve this goal.
ReplyDeletehaha. or do multiple, you're definitely talented enough.