Tuesday, September 29, 2009

swiss cheese life??

It feels like there's something missing. Some things just don't get my heart rate up anymore... and my life is not dull. It is not bad. There is simply a hole somewhere... and I just can't find something to fill it.
It also hit me the other day in between fits of sleep that this is the last. There will be no musical next year. There is only this year and then I am an adult. Right now I am sixteen. How is this happening? Next year I am on my own. Living the life I've dreamed about for who knows how long. But this is what I miss, and what I can't stand.
Maybe life starting will fill the hole. Or maybe it will disappear.

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