take your money.

i like the word eclectic.
a little bit of everything
and anything,
all put into a jar.
maybe me.
like hundreds of coins
waiting to be dollars,
in a tin from my favorite place.
making a jingle every time i need a quarter, or a nickel...
perhaps a dime. but shh!
don't make a sound...
heaven forbid there be a ring
that someone else cannot have.
or lost,
which only adds to the appeal.
so i will remain
silent
for only a few months more.
then i leave
with all my quarters and secrets
that i have chosen not to share
with people
like you.

*note of irony: as i was about to title this post, paper planes by MIA came on. coincidence?? i think not.*

people, not things.

the week has ended. now things will start to be better, and i can begin to be. maybe it is a two week curse... this thursday will be pretty bad. there are some people who make it better. close friends... something more. thank God for that.
i just hope that although i have been a neglectful child that he will bless my new beginnings and perhaps some happy endings. i just got a reeeeeally fruity image of a rainbow. haha.
sometimes i am serious, sometimes i am not. in between, i'm usually tuned out. lost in thought.. worrying about something i want, or want to fix. dah. it is tiring, this whole human thing.

hate it, love it.

this is yet another one of those times where i want to make an ultimatum, and say something that really means a lot, but i can't. because i know that i will change my mind tomorrow. or in two minutes.

cruel world, funny world.

this made me laugh out loud.... no joke.

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1IoSUv/9gag.com/gag/14159/

i am a cruel person. but this is what the world is like for too many wonderful boys and girls... i laugh at truth? or do i recognize this cartoon in myself? hmm. it's still funny.

they get it more than i do.

i just really like the music from up. and i have been spreading it around. it's just so good.
that and other songs on repeat in my life:

"Married Life" from Up.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93jxkqG0gWc&NR=1

"Oh, Darling" by The Beatles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_RCNGgL9V4

"Here Comes The Sun" by The Beatles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6tV11acSRk

"The Call" by Regina Spektor
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7uoC-YTQy8

apathy, my friends...

right now, i feel like someone is sitting on me; i'm too tired to push them off. strangely, i'd rather be suffocated than put forth a little effort to shove, or even roll over.

tall.

i hate how i have to talk about things to feel better about them. sometimes things are just better kept on the inside...